For the past three days I have been sitting in my basement counting my coins

I think I have reached the point of not having a life.

On the plus side, not having a life as made me $500+ so I guess its a trade off.

That can buy me some supplies for my road trip across America or a plane ticket to anywhere of my choosing.

Totally know what I am doing tonight

Watching Across the Universe.

The last time I saw it was….2007?

Wow that is ridiculous. Because it was a fun movie.

I also need to watch Hair again because it is the best and my favourite. 

I love riding my bike

But I hate having to ride back home. I enjoy going places and such and traveling, but not having to go back. That is just a pain.

I wish I could ride my bike, then when I am done have someone come and pick me up.

Yeah that would be nice.

I have a date on Friday at 1

I don’t know what is going on. 

I am just rocking back and forth because I dont know what else to do.

Oh gosh now I am freaking out because I have a date and I am excited but I will probably get stood up again.

Forget that I said anything.

As much as I love going to the park to read

I always see all these happy couples. From high school to in their 70s. 

Makes me wish I could have someone to share time with. Even if it is just sitting on the park bench, reading a book. Just knowing they were next to me would be enough. 

But I am fine with being alone. I enjoy the peace and the freedom to go as I please and do whatever I want to. It would just be nice for the future…..

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

Dear Me,

I know that you always say there isn’t much that you love about yourself. But I think it is high time that we finally think of some things. 

First, I love how I come off as warm and caring to people. Especially children. They have always loved me and I love them all right back. They are just so pure and innocent and see life as simple and loving. I also love how I can relate to most everyone on some level. Whether it be interests, fears, guilty pleasures, or family. 

I love how I can drink coffee black. I don’t really like it but I don’t have a problem with it. I love how I can just sing anywhere at any time and just pretend my voice is wonderful. I also love how I can name the song and artist within hearing the first 10 seconds of a song. 

I love how I strive to be helpful to others, and I want to work with those in need. I love how I am full of hope and compassion because there is always hope in the end and we need compassion in order to love. 

Finally, I love that I can be alone. Sure I wish I could go out on dates and have someone to kiss at night, but it doesn’t stop me from going out by myself. Like going to have dinner at a restaurant, or walk around in the park, or even go to a carnival. It is important to be content with being by yourself. Knowing you can survive after you lose someone you love. 

So I may hate a lot (and I mean a lot) of things about myself, but I suppose there are a few things I can love myself for. Just keep reminding yourself of those things.

Yours,

Yourself

Oh gosh I want to spend money but then again I don’t

I really want to buy the first three seasons of Mad About You for $34

But that is $34 that I wouldn’t have to spend on comics and cheesecake.

I also wanted to buy the first 5 seasons of Designing Women but that would be liek $94. 

Ugh I want to be rich.

What do I do?

Wonderful afternoon on my 11 mile bike ride

Stopped halfway in a park and sat under a tree to read the majority of “Of Mice and Men”. 

Then went to the salvation army to visit a dear friend of mine. 

Hopefully if it’s nice out again I can go tomorrow!

deciduous, adj.

“Nothing lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change.”